4.11.2006 02:42
i think about what was said at the turf today.
about my goals this year for the coming cross country competition.
to be top 40. to hit 15 ++ minutes clock time. to WHAT?!
it is shattered just like that.
i trained for nothing.
its useless.
i am feeling so low.
it just had to happen.
i thought it was just a minor sprain but
my ligament is torn.
just like my hopes-
TORN.i cant run the national cross country competition this coming wednesday.
its 2.44am now and i am blogging instead of sleeping.
i just cant get to sleep.
have been tossing on my bed for the past 3 hours?
my ankle feels numb.
and the pain never left me.
it is about to rain. i know i'm making a senseless statement. how much more sense does it make anyway for me to think positively right now.
yeah you are so right.
its not the end of the world.
but yeah i am not wrong to think negative.
ok,shuddup.
listen to more of my bitterness.
i was so angry.
i just had to be.
i felt so bad about my injury i do.
but no one gives a shiat.
they only see it as me wasting money to seek treatment.
they only see it as i am disobedient to be PLAYING instead of studying.
alright. tell me,how do i go to school tomarrow?
ahhhhHHHHHH! i am just so ___(what the hell do you put here?!)___.
and the pain is so killing me. )':
