4.11.2006 15:25
well,was trying to get out of bed today and yeah,go to school. but no i did not. you tell me what happened then. i've been on the bed since i came home from the sinseh last night. but of course not counting the times i hopped all the way to the toilet with realization that the toilet is actually very far from the bed. very far indeed. how many years did i take to realise that? and the laptop i was so envious my sis got suddenly felt like it belonged to me for awhile. how to think positively and not be bitter when i've spent the whole time on my bed letting my thoughts run wild? sorry people if i haven been responsive with your messages. i hope all of you'd understand. no offense but if you dont,then just too bad. get angry with me hate me whatever i just couldnt care about what the hell is going on around me. dont ask me how am i coping all these cause you just have to know. dont ask me if i am okaye cos you know i am not. but if hearing that "ok" from me would set your mind at ease then i am so friggin ok. i present to you the dejected ruth. i'm defeated. yes i really am. that is the truth. the truth about the truth that i cant run tomarrow. and truthS hurt. they really do.
bruised and battered,dazed and shattered.
