6.28.2006 23:35
think i haven been myself. have been swimming for consecutive 3 nights and more to come.
the water in the pool was as cold as how i feel.
after awhile,you dont feel cold anymore,numb maybe,and the body's gotten used to the temperature.
will it be the same when i am out of the pool? that the coldness will eventually numb me and i'll get used to it.
my eyes were stung and it hurt.
tears welled in my eyes naturally and awhile later,it'll be ok.
will it be the same when i am out of the pool? that tears that wells in my eyes will make me ok.
okok,shelving up the bloody thoughts again before i start typing more rubbish. the usual dosage of crap.
life has not been bad. when life has not been bad,it does not mean that life has been good. but when life has been good,it can mean that life has not been bad. life has not been bad after all.
i'm not depressed people.
this is me. look,the words DEPRESSION and RUTH totally dont go together. really thank you all for all the concern but if you well wish that you'd do a good deed and be there for a friend who is bloody depressed in any of the mornings,i'm really not the one you are looking for. i have two reasons. ONE,i am not depressed. i say again,I AM NOT DEPRESSED(dont say to me i am depressed again. i wish i am. then i'd be somewhere else instead of SCHOOL.) TWO,i am really not interested to get humourous in bloody mornings i wished i'd stay at home. please,said please,leave me alone.
