7.25.2006 23:33
its just a short two days and so many things had to happen.
today was ok. there was english lessons of course and mr mok had to tell me to add vocabulary into my composition or else i dont even need to think of going home. in any case i stayed back till i was finished with my vocabulary. i only had 2 tense errors this time and i didnt need to re write. considering the time i spent on adding all the bombastic vocabulary and the corrections,isnt it somewhat equal to the time i spend to re write a composition?
didnt manage to meet up with cifang today cos its tim's birthday. i wanted to msg her but i got all the msges messed up instead and sent everything wrongly. so it is not just about the stupid phone that sent mutiple same messages to the receipient isnt it. =/
okay back to the birthday celebration..we went to the japanese restaurant at psa for dinner. i just love to dine with aunt connie. one thing to look forward to and not be disappointed is that the food would be really good and it was so. (: we cut the cake after dinner and guess what? its the fifth cake i've eaten this month. hahaha.
yesterday was bad alright. i dont wanna dwell on it but i certainly was hurt in school. what is it that is in me that people should look down upon? i am such a pushover. )':
celebrated ms pey's birthday. she was delighted and ms elizabeth was very nice to have let me off her lesson for the celebration. (:
i just dont know what to say now,everything seems to be falling apart. i tried to forget and i thought i had manage to till so many things happened. grandpa's condition is getting from bad to worse. family problems are just so unavoidable. i encountered problems with schoolwork.
everything that has happened sort of triggered me off as i felt this sudden surge of sorrow from within once again. i just want to have a slower pace in life. i want to know what is going on. i feel so lost trying hard to look for directions. sometimes,i just cant help but to let everything play in my mind. yet there is still not any answer to the thousand questions i have in mind. i am not saying i am not happy. i am in fact,satisfied and grateful for all the blessings God has given me that i never had accounted in this blog. i realised i only mentioned the negative things. dont always look at me as a sad person,it is just the annoying way i deal with sadness that makes everyone think i am problematic i guess. i am not a sad person-i dont have a sad life. i am just a person who will feel sad at times. but whatever it is,the problems wont go away by themselves and we have to face them one day. spare me from all your criticisms and comments on the content of my entries-they are just things that i want to say but cant really speak about. blogging is somehow like sharing. ironic as to how i think i can
never share these problems and i seem to be sharing with many people through blogging. i wont consider it sharing though,you are free to come and go as you like. i wont know who is reading my entries also, but whoever you are, please if you dont like whatever i write here, just dont read-its is just this pure and simple.
